Dream in Life

So..he wasn’t bluffing after all.

Dropped me from the class. Loud and clear! I heard yah!

If you think that taking another subject for another semester would be a punishment…you’re wrong! I’m a school lover, don’t you know? I’m just sorry I got behind another 6 months.

And you…cold-blooded you…you made me sure what I want to be in life.

And that is NOT to become like you.

Today’s sing along song: Nobody Does It Better by Carly Simon

Love Letter

Going through the junk of paper in my shelf and I came across this:

Awww..sweet Sometimes I’m glad I’m a schoolmarm

 

Abysinnia!

Four days from now, I’ll say goodbye to the first group of very nice young people I have met in my life as a special ed teacher. I’ll see less of those young kids some people call ‘crazy’.

There are some things I learned in the 5 months I worked with them. I learned that:

1. anger will get you nowhere;

2. better to keep nice-ness in handy;  

3. laughter is STILL the best medicine;

4. some words shouldn’t be taken seriously; and 

5. it is best to keep a heart that is always 6 years old.

A few weeks from now, I’ll start my work with some blind children–an area I know little about but one I am keen on finding much about.

Blind, retard, autism, deaf–they’re all the same. They are all human beings who also thrive in love and care and a bit more of attention.

I’m gonna miss you all. Abysinnia!

Today’s sing along song: A Fond Farewell by Elliott Smith

The Reason

Considering all the unfortunate events that happened yesterday and my crying marathon last night, it was really some miracle that I was able to teach my Sunday School kids earlier this morning. And to be really honest, I really enjoyed teaching them today. Everything was perfect–the kids were responsive, they were cooperative, they prayed, sang and did the action songs I taught them.

And, not minding my puffy eyes (from “unbridled” tears of last night ), the kids coaxed me to play chinese garter with them. I was a lousy chinese garter player ever since I was a kid that’s why nobody wanted me for a partner but hey, hey..here’s what an “adult funky teacher” can do…the kids where fighting all over each other to have me in their teams! Doesn’t matter if I can only hop across knee-level, as long as I’m in their team…they are happy. When had I been so important like that? Cool.

Their innocent play, toothy grins and shrieks are all reminders of the reason why I chose to teach.

And nobody can take that joy away from me.

Today’s sing along song: Let the Children Play by Santana

The World Through My Eyes

I always dream big. If we’re going to go profound about it then I have to tell you that what I really want is to matter to people. No, not to my family or friends or would-be children coz I know I already matter to them.

I want to matter to the world.

Yes, help the poor. Educate the kids. Feed the hungry. Share the Goodnews to the lost. You get the picture.

But, unfortunately, my whole life, I’ve managed to live a life of mediocrity. I was educated in a reputable university, have a promising career, have a loving family, lots of friends, loved and cared for by someone of opposite sex. But that’s about it. That’s my life. I’m your average 20 something Filipino female.

What I need is to do something for the world. I don’t want to die merely belonging to another statistics. I want to belong to these group of radical people who saw life differently AND did something about it.

No, I hate politics. Doesn’t even watch the news. Hardly reads a newspaper. But I am FOR the people. I just hope that it wouldn’t take me 50 years to figure out HOW to positively influence lives. But one thing I’m certain. I was born with a purpose and I will find out what that purpose is.

And when I do, I’ll spend my life living it out.

Today’s sing along song: We Are the World