Loss For Words

Two words: Louis Vuitton

Four words: God is sooo good!

And the LV has little to do with it..:)

Hoping and Waiting

Since my husband decided to work abroad, we feel like we’ve spent most of our time waiting–waiting for him to come home, waiting for him/me to call, and when he’s home for a short vacation, we still wait for the time when he’ll leave again (he comes home every 6 months).

This recent separation is especially lonesome for us since he’s in another continent. Plus, I really hate the time zone difference between us. Next month will be my turn to leave and that’ll be another adjustment for both of us. Although we’re married already, we can’t settle down because we’re like two nomads with no place to call home.  It’s been a month now since he left for UK and so the waiting continues. But this time, at least, there’s a bigger hope that we’ll be together soon and we can finally say that waiting is officially over.

Fear has no place for us now. Oh, yes it’s there but we’re trying not to give in to it. We’re in a moment when we’re really “Just hanging in there”.

But hope continues.

Aginst all hope, Abraham in hope believed…without weakening in his faith.

Romans 4:18-19

Thank you Lord because you know the plans that are best for us. Thank you because you have never stopped loving us. And because of that, we have reasons to keep on hoping and believing that we will stand victorious against any trials. After all, we are more than conquerors.

You are our Father yet you are also our Friend. You are the Hope of the world but you are also the hope that lives in our hearts. I love you Lord but nothing and no one will compare to the love that You have for me. For us.

When Tomorrow Comes

Since you came home from work abroad 3 months ago, I can’t shake the thought from my mind each morning I would wake up that this day could be our “last”. And now…the dreaded moment has come. Time for me to see you go again.

Last night, while I watch you sleep, I keep wishing I have powers to stall time and make it last a bit more longer. But the Lord has decided that the time we had together as husband and wife was enough for now.

You know that I’m never good in the farewell department that’s why I never go with you to the airport to drop you off and say goodbye. But I braved this morning. I can bear to see you go this time because I now know that you’re not walking away from me…you’re just walking ahead of me. 

In my mind, I keep a picture of you beside me while you sleep. And in my heart I keep the hope and the peace I have each night that I will see you beside me when I open my eyes. For now, I bid you, not goodbye, my love. I like saying it the way the folks from Norfolk do.

Si yorlye morla.

I will see you tomorrow.   

Hard Night

If tonight was some night during my college years, what we’ll have between us would be a pitcher of beer and some womana amano bonding. But tonight is different..I’m a married woman now. I have a reputation to keep. So it’s just you and me, buddy. Some tough night to bear.

Life Cycle of A Woman

One week after being married, an aunt asked me (loudly) over dinner, “Oh, buntis ka na?” In a week’s time??! Now, I understand that there are couples who are already expecting a baby before they got married…but not this lady, ma’am. I’m too honorable a lady to do such a thing! Kidding.On the other hand, even if I was indeed pregnant, would I felt the symptoms of pregnancy in a week’s a time? Come on, Tita!

I used to ask that question to friends whom I know just recently got married, too. And when my aunt asked that question to me, I realized how stupid it was. I’m not sure why people (especially members of your family) ask that. However, I am under a certain conclusion that people ask stupid questions because there is, or should be, an order in one’s life.

When I was 7, Aunts and Uncles would ask me whether I was already in school. And now that I’m a (little) grown-up, I ask some 7-year old kids that question, too! When I entered high school and learned to put on a little lip gloss and pluck my eyebrow, Aunts and Uncles would ask me if I already have a boyfriend.  After college, their interest veered towards my career plans or a.k.a “Where are you working?” When I reached 25 and saw most of my cousins heading down the altar, relatives would ask me in the middle of the dinner reception, when it would be my turn to get married..

Three years and a wedding ring after, my relatives are now seemed to be very interested in the status of my reproductive organs. I politely told her that I’m not preggy yet and that I won’t get preggy yet and told her to do a rain check after a year or so…

BUT, I know that after a baby is born from me, my nosy relatives (and most friends) are not yet through asking for updates! Next they’ll be asking when I plan to have baby #2, have we bought a house, which school does my kids attend, is my husband faithful, etc, etc.

Fast forward to 2028:

My surviving relatives would ask me if I’m still menstruating, are my kids finished with college, have I bought a life insurance, etc, etc.

Fast forward still to 2048:

If I’m lucky to still be alive, I know I would be the one irritating my nieces and nephews with stupid questions like those I just told you. As you would have probably already figured out, life is a cycle. What goes around comes around. Irritating questions they may be but I’m happy to be blessed with nosy relatives who keep such a record of my progress in life J

Which reminds me, I only have a year to work on a baby. I don’t want to be 35 and still breast feeding!